10. This is the # of pounds I would like to lose a month (I'll take more though)
9. September (9 Months) I'd like to weigh 275 (or less)
8. Our eight year wedding anniversary - I'd like to take a trip somewhere nice and not be worried about my weight (yeah I'll still be around 275 but it's less than 350)
7. I can't think of a damn thing - so screw seven. :-)
6. Time I'd like to wake up every morning and work out.
5. Golden rings (oh wait wrong holiday) # of miles I'd like to walk each day eventually
4. # of pounds to lose before getting down to 339
3. # of job offers I'd like to have (ASAP)
2. # of times I'd like to walk a 5k next year (not run - thank you very much)
1. Last, I'd like to wish all of my new blogging buddies a very Happy 2009 - thanks for all of your support in 2008. Much success to all of us in the coming year!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Weighty Wednesdays
Weight 12/17/08 - 346.6
Current Weight - 343.6
Weight lost - 3
I skipped last weeks weigh in....hmmmmm, oh well.
I lost close to 10 pounds this month. I'll take it. I usually gain 10 pounds in December so this is a huge step for me. Who diets during the holidays? Can't wait for 2009!
Current Weight - 343.6
Weight lost - 3
I skipped last weeks weigh in....hmmmmm, oh well.
I lost close to 10 pounds this month. I'll take it. I usually gain 10 pounds in December so this is a huge step for me. Who diets during the holidays? Can't wait for 2009!
Monday, December 29, 2008
Christmas, family, weight...
I hope that everyone had a very nice holiday.
My husband and I drove down to Georgia to spend Christmas with my dad. This is the first Christmas since my mom died. We had all talked about it and decided we weren't really going to do anything. We'd just spend time together and have a nice dinner. No tree, no gifts, no decorations. Not this year. There really wasn't one specific reason for this - I'm not working, my mom not being here...it just seemed like the plan for this year. When we got to my dad's house he decorated the inside. It was really nice of him, but it upset me because he hung all of the stockings. My mom made new stockings for all of us every year. It was hard to see (in a good way). I cried a little. I saw that he stuffed each stocking with some stuff too. He said it wouldn't be right not to celebrate. I felt bad because I stuck to the original plan. Anyway...it was a very emotional day but a good one too.
My dad lives in a really small town out in the middle of nowhere. There are lots of places to walk so that is what I did every morning. I walked around 2.5 miles everyday. I felt great doing it too. Normally when we're there we sort of veg out. He lives on a lake and it's just like a nice little vacation. My dad walked with me a couple of mornings and it was nice to talk to him. I think that he was very surprised I could walk the distance (and at a good pace too). He quit walking after a mile - I would continue each morning.
After getting home from my walk Saturday my dad said he was really proud of me. He said that he would like to see me lose some weight. No shit sherlock. My dad and I have a really weird relationship regarding my weight. He doesn't understand what it is like to be heavy or struggle with weight. He thinks that you just eat less and exercise more and it all falls off. I've tried to talk to him and explain that a lot of my issues aren't only with the food and exercise. They are also emotional issues. He doesn't get it though. I've struggled with my weight my entire life. I don't know where it stems from and I'm trying to figure it out. So...back to my dad and his comment. I told him that I knew he'd like for me to lose the weight, I'd also like to lose it too. It's not like I love waking up every morning in this body. I explained that I didn't like to talk to him about it because of his lack of compassion/understanding and I think maybe he got it? I think since my mom died he's really trying to be a different person.
As my husband and I were leaving for home my dad said he was really proud and I should keep the walking up. I said thanks. I told him that when he calls he can't ask me if I've walked or how much I've walked because that will just annoy me. He agreed. :-)
We had a nice holiday all things considered.
I ate far too much and I'm hoping that I can break even for the month???? We shall see Wednesday.
My husband and I drove down to Georgia to spend Christmas with my dad. This is the first Christmas since my mom died. We had all talked about it and decided we weren't really going to do anything. We'd just spend time together and have a nice dinner. No tree, no gifts, no decorations. Not this year. There really wasn't one specific reason for this - I'm not working, my mom not being here...it just seemed like the plan for this year. When we got to my dad's house he decorated the inside. It was really nice of him, but it upset me because he hung all of the stockings. My mom made new stockings for all of us every year. It was hard to see (in a good way). I cried a little. I saw that he stuffed each stocking with some stuff too. He said it wouldn't be right not to celebrate. I felt bad because I stuck to the original plan. Anyway...it was a very emotional day but a good one too.
My dad lives in a really small town out in the middle of nowhere. There are lots of places to walk so that is what I did every morning. I walked around 2.5 miles everyday. I felt great doing it too. Normally when we're there we sort of veg out. He lives on a lake and it's just like a nice little vacation. My dad walked with me a couple of mornings and it was nice to talk to him. I think that he was very surprised I could walk the distance (and at a good pace too). He quit walking after a mile - I would continue each morning.
After getting home from my walk Saturday my dad said he was really proud of me. He said that he would like to see me lose some weight. No shit sherlock. My dad and I have a really weird relationship regarding my weight. He doesn't understand what it is like to be heavy or struggle with weight. He thinks that you just eat less and exercise more and it all falls off. I've tried to talk to him and explain that a lot of my issues aren't only with the food and exercise. They are also emotional issues. He doesn't get it though. I've struggled with my weight my entire life. I don't know where it stems from and I'm trying to figure it out. So...back to my dad and his comment. I told him that I knew he'd like for me to lose the weight, I'd also like to lose it too. It's not like I love waking up every morning in this body. I explained that I didn't like to talk to him about it because of his lack of compassion/understanding and I think maybe he got it? I think since my mom died he's really trying to be a different person.
As my husband and I were leaving for home my dad said he was really proud and I should keep the walking up. I said thanks. I told him that when he calls he can't ask me if I've walked or how much I've walked because that will just annoy me. He agreed. :-)
We had a nice holiday all things considered.
I ate far too much and I'm hoping that I can break even for the month???? We shall see Wednesday.
Dream
I had a dream I was enjoying some Oreo Cookies....thank goodness we don't have any in the house, who knows what I would have done!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Take the good with the bad
So a few things I'm proud of this week (and a few I need to work on)
Good things:
1. I walked 15.65 miles, it's actually more but I wasn't wearing my nifty little tracking device. And no, it's not a ankle monitor. LOL
It's a Lifesource Wireless Activity Monitor
It's been helpful tracking calories/time/steps - but it's not perfect by any means. First of all...far too expensive. We only paid $39.99 so it was a better deal than most places. The second problem is that the battery isn't replaceable. It is accurate though, if I walk 2.5 miles on my treadmill the software shows that same information. So, it's been helpful.
2. I baked cookies/goodies for the holidays three days straight. I only had a few bites of things. Normally I'd test all of the dough and then have a few cookies to top it off. This time I had my husband be the guinea pig. It worked out great.
3. I tried to stay positive after my last "I'm pissed" post. I got over it and got back on my trusty little treadmill and threw in a few walking videos as well.
Bad things:
1. Tested cookies. Not a lot - but still tested a few.
2. We had take out twice this week and I made bad choices. I knew I was making them too. I have to live with the scale now. I take full responsibility. I was tired from all of the baking and didn't want to cook dinner.
3. Didn't work out for two days this week (Saturday & today)
So, I'll take the good with the bad. It's not the end of the world. We're heading down to Georgia for the Christmas break.
I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe Christmas.
Be back before the new year - and I really hope that I'm at the same weight. No promises though!
Good things:
1. I walked 15.65 miles, it's actually more but I wasn't wearing my nifty little tracking device. And no, it's not a ankle monitor. LOL
It's a Lifesource Wireless Activity Monitor
It's been helpful tracking calories/time/steps - but it's not perfect by any means. First of all...far too expensive. We only paid $39.99 so it was a better deal than most places. The second problem is that the battery isn't replaceable. It is accurate though, if I walk 2.5 miles on my treadmill the software shows that same information. So, it's been helpful.
2. I baked cookies/goodies for the holidays three days straight. I only had a few bites of things. Normally I'd test all of the dough and then have a few cookies to top it off. This time I had my husband be the guinea pig. It worked out great.
3. I tried to stay positive after my last "I'm pissed" post. I got over it and got back on my trusty little treadmill and threw in a few walking videos as well.
Bad things:
1. Tested cookies. Not a lot - but still tested a few.
2. We had take out twice this week and I made bad choices. I knew I was making them too. I have to live with the scale now. I take full responsibility. I was tired from all of the baking and didn't want to cook dinner.
3. Didn't work out for two days this week (Saturday & today)
So, I'll take the good with the bad. It's not the end of the world. We're heading down to Georgia for the Christmas break.
I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe Christmas.
Be back before the new year - and I really hope that I'm at the same weight. No promises though!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I'm pissed
CRAP!!
I've gone up 1.2 pounds this week. I swear it better be muscle or water. I have worked my buns off (literally). I got on the scale Sunday, because I'm obsessed, and I saw that I had gained weight. I couldn't figure it out. I've been eating very healthy, watching the portions, and exercising like crazy. Some days I've walked five miles. I've only been doing this a couple of weeks so what gives? Can't have a plateau after two weeks, right??? It's very difficult to accept this because I have been working so hard.
Alright, I'm done ranting. I guess it is what it is and I've got to get over it. All part of the bigger picture. It still sucks though. I'm just going to continue to do what I'm doing and hopefully it will reflect in the #'s for next week.
I just want to say how hard it is to post when you've gained weight. I'm more than willing to put myself out there when I've lost weight. I thought about not posting, maybe even posting but keeping my weight the same. I figured if I did that the only person I'm really hurting is myself. I guess I just don't want to be judged for gaining weight. That is completely ridiculous I know. Everyone I've talked to has been so supportive and incredible, but it is still a fear I have.
I've gone up 1.2 pounds this week. I swear it better be muscle or water. I have worked my buns off (literally). I got on the scale Sunday, because I'm obsessed, and I saw that I had gained weight. I couldn't figure it out. I've been eating very healthy, watching the portions, and exercising like crazy. Some days I've walked five miles. I've only been doing this a couple of weeks so what gives? Can't have a plateau after two weeks, right??? It's very difficult to accept this because I have been working so hard.
Alright, I'm done ranting. I guess it is what it is and I've got to get over it. All part of the bigger picture. It still sucks though. I'm just going to continue to do what I'm doing and hopefully it will reflect in the #'s for next week.
I just want to say how hard it is to post when you've gained weight. I'm more than willing to put myself out there when I've lost weight. I thought about not posting, maybe even posting but keeping my weight the same. I figured if I did that the only person I'm really hurting is myself. I guess I just don't want to be judged for gaining weight. That is completely ridiculous I know. Everyone I've talked to has been so supportive and incredible, but it is still a fear I have.
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- I'm just ready for a change. I'm hoping that this will be a place to meet people who are struggling as I am and we can help each other out.