Where have I been?
Since my last post, so much has happened. I did continue my weight loss journey and actually got down to 268 pounds, my lowest in a lot of years. I was walking almost 7 miles a day (on good days at least). I also incorporated some weight training into my daily activities.
Then...in January I had the most exciting news ever. I was pregnant. Something I've waited for my entire life. I'm sure that the weight loss had everything to do w/ my success in conceiving. So I continued walking for a few weeks after I found out. Then when it was medically confirmed I was just so scared to exercise for fear of losing the baby. Stupid I know, but it's how I felt. I wish I had continued for several reasons.
Fast forward to September and I gave birth via C-section to a beautiful baby girl. Life is pretty amazing.
Fast forward to now...my weight is back up to 325. Shit is all I have to say.
My fear in having a daughter is the fear of her having this weight issue as her burden. I vowed to lose this weight for many reasons, and now I have the biggest one of all. I can not let her know what it's like to be made fun of, not enjoy life, worry about what people think, or what clothes will fit, and the million other negative thoughts that run through my head on a daily basis. I've stayed away from the blog because I just felt like the pregnancy was the most important thing and now I've done that so I need to get back to a healthy place.
My hope is that this blog will work like it did the first time. Sharing my stuff with others and reading other blogger's stuff will kick my butt into gear.
Here's hoping that I'll end 2010 on a smaller note and continue my healthy journey in 2011!