Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I'm back on my horse again

Yesterday was a weird day for me. I'm not sure what is / was going on, but I think I'm getting over it. I figured I should just put it out there so that it was 'on paper' so to speak. I didn't want anyone to feel bad for me I just needed to vent for a minute this morning.

This month I tried to do something new. Not weigh myself for the entire month. Okay...that so did not happen. I check often, just haven't shared. I think that by ignoring my blog and others I've lost the connection with people who get me better than anyone. I've sort of checked out. I didn't do it intentionally.

I'm going to finish off my month (successful or not) and start April with a my Weighty Wednesdays again. I think that it holds me accountable and I want to do good.

I also wonder if getting under the 300 mark scares me subconsciously - I've got less than 20 pounds to get there and that seems attainable at this point. I should really be working my butt off to hit that magic 299 right? Just seems weird that I sabotage myself right before I get there. Something for me to explore.........

Guess that's all. I'm not quitting, cause I know it sounded that way this morning. I ate well and exercised tonight so all is well. Not to say I won't have another breakdown in the near future - but for now I'm hanging in there.

Going, going, gone....................

Quick post - I've lost my motivation. I'm trying really hard to hang in there - but I'm struggling. I don't know if it's because I haven't been around blogville lately or what....

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Oh yeah....

This is not an OH YEAH, I lost 10 pounds this week. This is an oh yeah, I forgot to mention.....I'm not going to do my Weighty Wednesdays this month (only this month). Since I've given myself a huge # for this month I've decided to only weigh in once at the end of the month. It's so hard to watch the numbers fluctuate weekly that I don't want to get myself too discouraged.

Still hanging in there and exercising daily. Not as much as I'd like, but exercising just the same.

The ALS ride probably isn't going to pan out because of work and how far away it is (3 1/2 hours one way). So I'll continue to ride the bike and be ready for next year.

I just want to mention that I had a weak moment with some Girl Scout cookies. Being back at work is great. Just not the part where everyone wants you to help their kids be the top cookie seller in Girl Scouts. I'm such a people pleaser I just can't say no. So we had four boxes in the house. Two boxes of Thin Mints, 1 of the lemons, and another. They sat on the counter for four days - four days and I was fine. Then all of a sudden I had a hankering for one of those damn things. Did I eat just one. Hell no, I ate four. The boxes are now gone thank goodness and those little Girl Scouts are done selling in our area. Thank God!

Have a great week!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Springing forward

It's been forever since I've actually sat down and shared anything. I made myself a list of things to do today and this is the last item to be checked off.

February sucked for me. I lost a total of 6 pounds the whole month. Now I know that I should look at that and be grateful that it wasn't a gain. I am. But, what I'm thinking is that I just wasn't all that focused last month. I took my measurements and nothing really changed - I lost an inch or two here and there. I wasn't pleased. I think that I used starting my job as an excuse. Eating hasn't been my problem it's keeping up with the exercise. When I was home I was working out 1 1/2 hours everyday. Now, not so much.

March hit and I got back with the program. Whatever the program is. I'm not on anything - I'm just doing my own thing. I know that there are a lot of people who have success following a program and that is awesome. Me, not so much. What I'm doing is working right now and that is what I'll continue. If I find that something changes and I need a new outlook, maybe WW. It seems to be the most effective program (in my opinion). Anway...March....I made it a goal to exercise everyday and to lose a total of 15 pounds this month. Yeah, it's a huge goal. Am I setting myself up for disappointment? Maybe. But, so far we're eight days into the month and I'm doing it. The 15 pounds is just so that I can make up for what I didn't lose in February, but if it doesn't happen that's okay. I'll live.

I've been toying with the idea of riding a 15 mile mountain bike ride for ALS (what my mom died from in October). I was very close to my mom. She was my best friend and this disease is awful. ALS is having a ride in Georgia next month and I've been thinking about doing it. 15 miles isn't much (probably a little over an hour ride) but for a 300 pound gal - it's a long ride. We bought a bike trainer and I've been riding everyday - I have to make a decision by this weekend. I don't even know if I can get the time away from work to do it??? I just figured it was for a good cause, and I would benefit in more ways than one (weight loss, exercise, helping others with ALS and a tribute to my mom who loved to ride).

Guess that's all --- I'll be trying to stay more up to date with everyone and comment a little more.

Spring is almost here! :-) Happy days!

And, check (off my list)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Weighty Wednesdays (on Thursday)

Weight 2/25/09 - 326.6
Current Weight 3/5/09 - 324.6
Weight lost - 2

I didn't post last night because I was trying to get around to post comments on all other blogs. This is from yesterday though.

I haven't got to everyone's blogs yet - I'm so behind. I'll be visiting soon though. :-)

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I'm just ready for a change. I'm hoping that this will be a place to meet people who are struggling as I am and we can help each other out.