Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I'm back on my horse again

Yesterday was a weird day for me. I'm not sure what is / was going on, but I think I'm getting over it. I figured I should just put it out there so that it was 'on paper' so to speak. I didn't want anyone to feel bad for me I just needed to vent for a minute this morning.

This month I tried to do something new. Not weigh myself for the entire month. Okay...that so did not happen. I check often, just haven't shared. I think that by ignoring my blog and others I've lost the connection with people who get me better than anyone. I've sort of checked out. I didn't do it intentionally.

I'm going to finish off my month (successful or not) and start April with a my Weighty Wednesdays again. I think that it holds me accountable and I want to do good.

I also wonder if getting under the 300 mark scares me subconsciously - I've got less than 20 pounds to get there and that seems attainable at this point. I should really be working my butt off to hit that magic 299 right? Just seems weird that I sabotage myself right before I get there. Something for me to explore.........

Guess that's all. I'm not quitting, cause I know it sounded that way this morning. I ate well and exercised tonight so all is well. Not to say I won't have another breakdown in the near future - but for now I'm hanging in there.

10 comments:

Losing Waist! said...

I am excited to hear that you are going to be back! Yeah!

I am glad that you see a connection in your blogland... I know you are one of my closest ones! And not just because we share the same taste in awesome shows.

Losing Waist! said...

I am excited to hear that you are going to be back! Yeah!

I am glad that you see a connection in your blogland... I know you are one of my closest ones! And not just because we share the same taste in awesome shows.

wildfluffysheep said...

*hugs* I'm glad you put it out there. Blogging is cathartic. You have to vent sometimes. It is not healthy to keep it bottled up!

Glad you're checking back in :D Its good that you tried something new and have decided it didn't work. Sometimes you have to try different things.

YOU ARE NOT QUITTING! kudos on the exercise and eating well. I'm here for you :D

Stephen said...

You're not alone on the self sabotage. Sometimes I feel the same way. Also, I sometimes I feel like my family sabotages me...

I look forward to reading more about your progress.

Thank You

bbubblyb said...

Glad to hear you're hanging in there. I'm sure the 300 mark is scarying you, I think we all go through that with those milestone numbers. You'll get there though just keep moving forward. Hope you have a good weekend *hugs*.

Losing Waist! said...

OLD NAVY! Yeah! I do order most of my clothes from their plus sized online store. They used to have the plus size line in the store, but they yanked it out over a year ago. I threw an email fit... but I had to get over it because their "fit" is so good for me. I am heaviest in the gut and sides, so the typical plus size clothing store doesn't fit me well. I also have a little more than usual in the arms, less in the breast and more in my back width. I am about 5ft 9in... and all of their pants are long enough. Why don't you send me your email address to losingwaist@yahoo.com and I can help you with this stuff. I have friends who are similar in weight to me, but have it distributed differently- so I am an expert in which stores fit who... I can also guide you to what styles the different stores have and what body shape they fit. Yeah! I can help you out with that!

Sharon said...

Welcome back! I'm just catching up on your blog for the past month. Looking forward to more Weighty Wednesdays!

bbubblyb said...

How ya doing this week? I hope ok. I know how tough it all can be. I do think posting here helps though. Hope to see another post from you soon.

bbubblyb said...

Ok I'm here for my weekly check-in. How are you? I miss you. Hope you had a happy Easter and hope to see a post or comment from you soon.

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