Weighty Wednesdays

Weight 1/21/09 - 335.8
Current Weight 1/28/09 - 332.6
Weight lost - 3.2

Negative dreaming

I'm a dreamer. I have tons of dreams at night - a lot of them quite weird (I won't share). Last night I had a dream that I was running. Now, first of all I don't run. Never have. Not sure if I ever will. Second, not sure why I was running. Anyway...I'm running on a track and along comes this woman I grew up with. We keep in contact, but it's only occasional. She passes me. I'm bothered by this (in my dream) and decide I need to keep up with her so I start hauling ass. I peter out quickly and don't really know what happens. Here is my issue - why did I feel the need to chase her? I was running at a good pace for me - but once she passed me - I felt the need to outdo her.

I'm just bothered by the fact I couldn't be happy about where I was at, ya know? Just doing my best getting the job done.

I probably shouldn't take the dream so literally. I just woke up thinking maybe this is why I don't succeed sometimes. I'm so worried about not being as good as someone that I quit (peter out) when I'm not.

Enough of that - I'm learning just to be okay with me. Some days are easier than others.

I guess it gave me the incentive to walk a little faster on the treadmill this morning. I was averaging about 3 miles in 1 hour and 5 minutes and I cut it down to 3 miles in 57 minutes. Yeah for me. :-)

Not sharing

I've been wanting to participate in posts - on my own blog - lately and I just don't have anything interesting going on. Really!

Here is a day in the life of me -
Wake up
Eat breakfast
Work out
Take shower
Eat lunch
Husband calls to see how things are (5 minute conversation)
Watch TV
Go and get the mail
Make dinner
Eat dinner
Play Wii or watch TV
Read blogs
Go to bed
And start all over again.

I'm like a robot. I'm doing all of the healthy things I'm supposed to do I just don't have anything going on in between.

I don't feel like it's fair of me to just check in on Wednesday to post my weight and nothing else. How will I really fix this fat person in me if I don't share what I'm really feeling half the time? I don't feel like I have anything interesting to say so I don't.

I think I'm going to make it a goal to post something at least once a week (to start) and work from there.

For all of you who comment, I just want to say thank you. It means a lot that you just come by to see how my week was.

Weighty Wednesdays

Weight 1/14/09 - 336.8
Current Weight 1/21/09 - 335.8
Weight lost - 1

Weighty Wednesdays

Weight 1/7/09 - 342
Current Weight 1/14/09 - 336.8
Weight lost - 5.2

I'll take it.

Weighty Wednesdays

Weight 12/31/08 - 343.6
Current Weight - 342
Weight lost - 1.6

Such a follower

So while I was perusing other blogs I noticed that Losing Waist has sort of tagged anyone who follows her blog to list 10 interesting things about yourself...since I don't have a lot going on in my life I figured I'd jump on the wagon and share some things (may or may not be interesting) about me:

1. I am deathly afraid of bees. Any sort of bee (wasp, bumble, yellow jacket...you get the idea). It's a completely irrational fear since I've never been stung. If a bee comes near me (God forbid it lands on me) I run around with my arms flailing. It's quite funny. My husband couldn't stop laughing the first time he saw it happen. It's just a natural reaction too. Maybe I should just keep the bees around so that I would run. :-)

2. I have flat feet. It's a real pain the butt. I can't wear the cute little sandals because my foot hangs over. Since I've been walking so much I've got blisters where my arches should be.

3. October 2 is an interesting date for me. It was my mom's delivery due date for me in 1971. In 2003 my mother in law passed away after hitting her head on a table and never waking up. My mom had to put her dog to sleep that same day in 2003, and finally my mom died October 2, 2008.

4. I dated someone who went to jail. I was in my early 20's and we had gone out a couple of times. He ended up in jail and I went to visit a few times. Finally got a clue...I was young.

5. My husband never really proposed to me. We were driving around talking about it and we just sort of ended up at a jewelry store. It's the one thing that bugs me about our relationship. I secretly wish I had one of those romantic proposals.

6. I love to cook/bake. I'm a Food Network junkie. Every Saturday I'm watching. Probably not the best thing for a fattie. I don't make everything I see - I honestly just love to get their tips. Giada & Ellie Krieger usually make fairly healthy meals.

7. I miss California like crazy. I was born and raised in the Bay Area - we moved because we couldn't afford to buy a home there. I miss the beach/ocean. I miss the diversity. I miss the fresh fruit and produce. You just don't understand the difference in freshness. I never thought it would be such a problem. We live in Knoxville and they have no idea of what fresh produce is. I miss my family and friends. And, I miss Chipotle, Baja Fresh, and In & Out Burger....yeah I know they aren't healthy choices.

8. I'd really love to find a job in the medical field, preferably radiology or respiratory therapy. I'm too afraid to make the jump. I've been doing accounting/office work for the past 15 years and I'm so unhappy. But, I know it. It's not fulfilling.

9. I'm not afraid to die. Weird I know. After watching someone you love die - it's quite peaceful.

10. We have two English Bulldogs. Millie (named after the Millennium - she was born in 2000) and Feta (yes like the cheese - we didn't name her she was adopted). They are both going to be nine this year. They are like my kids. I don't dress them or anything, but they are quite spoiled.

Guess that's all.................

Monthly Measurements

Wrist 7
Upper Arm 19
Neck 17
Chest 48
Waist 57.5
Hips 66
Thigh 31
Calf 19.25
Blood Pressure 113/71
Blood Sugar 97

Lost a few inches here and there, nothing too significant.