Friday, January 23, 2009

Negative dreaming

I'm a dreamer. I have tons of dreams at night - a lot of them quite weird (I won't share). Last night I had a dream that I was running. Now, first of all I don't run. Never have. Not sure if I ever will. Second, not sure why I was running. Anyway...I'm running on a track and along comes this woman I grew up with. We keep in contact, but it's only occasional. She passes me. I'm bothered by this (in my dream) and decide I need to keep up with her so I start hauling ass. I peter out quickly and don't really know what happens. Here is my issue - why did I feel the need to chase her? I was running at a good pace for me - but once she passed me - I felt the need to outdo her.

I'm just bothered by the fact I couldn't be happy about where I was at, ya know? Just doing my best getting the job done.

I probably shouldn't take the dream so literally. I just woke up thinking maybe this is why I don't succeed sometimes. I'm so worried about not being as good as someone that I quit (peter out) when I'm not.

Enough of that - I'm learning just to be okay with me. Some days are easier than others.

I guess it gave me the incentive to walk a little faster on the treadmill this morning. I was averaging about 3 miles in 1 hour and 5 minutes and I cut it down to 3 miles in 57 minutes. Yeah for me. :-)


bbubblyb said...

I try not to worry about where others are. I keep reminding myself this is my journey and I have to figure out what is best for me. I think a little friendly competition every now and then isn't a bad thing though, some remotivation can't hurt any of us. But I know there are people moving way faster than me and I'm ok with that. I have different issues than them and I'd like to think I am sorting myself out along the way so I won't have to do this ever again.

Good for you for walking this morning. You're doing great.

Losing Waist! said...

Yeah for you!

Sometimes dreams bother me- mostly I don't remember them but there are a few here and there that stick with me. There are a couple that have bothered me enough where if I start to think about them I can work myself up pretty good. I don't think there is anything wrong with being a bit disturbed by a dream. It comes from somewhere within you... There is something to them in one way or another...

I like hearing from you more often!

Karyn said...

I think it is good that you are beginning to look within yourself for some answers - if a dream sparks that, yay for the dream!

sounds like you are doing great on the treadmill! Way faster than me, that's for sure!

BigBootyJudy said...

Whatever the dream means, good job on the increase in your efforts on the treadmill!

JC said...

I have some pretty strange dreams sometime too and no I do not run. Hi, I'm new to your site. I've been on the journey to lose weight for a couple of years now and I'm about half way to my goal. Congrats on your progress. I'll visit again.

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