I'm a dreamer. I have tons of dreams at night - a lot of them quite weird (I won't share). Last night I had a dream that I was running. Now, first of all I don't run. Never have. Not sure if I ever will. Second, not sure why I was running. Anyway...I'm running on a track and along comes this woman I grew up with. We keep in contact, but it's only occasional. She passes me. I'm bothered by this (in my dream) and decide I need to keep up with her so I start hauling ass. I peter out quickly and don't really know what happens. Here is my issue - why did I feel the need to chase her? I was running at a good pace for me - but once she passed me - I felt the need to outdo her.
I'm just bothered by the fact I couldn't be happy about where I was at, ya know? Just doing my best getting the job done.
I probably shouldn't take the dream so literally. I just woke up thinking maybe this is why I don't succeed sometimes. I'm so worried about not being as good as someone that I quit (peter out) when I'm not.
Enough of that - I'm learning just to be okay with me. Some days are easier than others.
I guess it gave me the incentive to walk a little faster on the treadmill this morning. I was averaging about 3 miles in 1 hour and 5 minutes and I cut it down to 3 miles in 57 minutes. Yeah for me. :-)