Wednesday, December 17, 2008

I'm pissed

CRAP!!
I've gone up 1.2 pounds this week. I swear it better be muscle or water. I have worked my buns off (literally). I got on the scale Sunday, because I'm obsessed, and I saw that I had gained weight. I couldn't figure it out. I've been eating very healthy, watching the portions, and exercising like crazy. Some days I've walked five miles. I've only been doing this a couple of weeks so what gives? Can't have a plateau after two weeks, right??? It's very difficult to accept this because I have been working so hard.

Alright, I'm done ranting. I guess it is what it is and I've got to get over it. All part of the bigger picture. It still sucks though. I'm just going to continue to do what I'm doing and hopefully it will reflect in the #'s for next week.

I just want to say how hard it is to post when you've gained weight. I'm more than willing to put myself out there when I've lost weight. I thought about not posting, maybe even posting but keeping my weight the same. I figured if I did that the only person I'm really hurting is myself. I guess I just don't want to be judged for gaining weight. That is completely ridiculous I know. Everyone I've talked to has been so supportive and incredible, but it is still a fear I have.

7 comments:

Danielle said...

Me too. I am terrified of posting if I gain. I am probably going to gain this week too (not from exercise, like you, but from lack of). I have been housebound because of near zero degree weather all week and today the skies dumped so much snow that the whole city is shutting down.

Anyway. I know that part of my issues have revolved around keeping behaviors associated with my weight gaining a secret and even keeping my weight gain a secret (until it can be seen by others). It is a huge accomplishment to be able to post that you gained and especially since you were fighting with yourself about it. I think it is just part of the whole picture, to learn to be honest and open about everything... GOOD JOB. You took a huge step that may not have been so obvious but WOW!

Kimberly said...

I have decided to be completely honest whether I lose, maintain or gain. It is tough when you do everything right and the scale mocks you by posting a gain. Hang in there and maybe lay off the scale for a bit. Focus on what you can do each day to eat right and exercise. Eventually the scale will have to recognize your hard work

Danielle said...

Hey! How are you doing? I have seen a lot of your comments out there... I've been thinking about you because you had a frustrating week like me and I was just checking up. A few days after the let down now but you said you have been kicking ass with working out... so???

Neelith said...

Way to go! I am so glad that you were honest about your gain. Sometimes the scale does not reflect our hard work. I tend to also hide when I gain weight. I am going to make a commitment to posting honest numbers every week no mater what! My weigh day is saturday.

Anonymous said...

Ewww- gains suck! I'm so sorry. You know, I hit a plateau pretty early on as well. It was kinda crazy, but it certainly passed! Tell us how you gain and lose and get frustrated and get happy. We are certainly not here to judge!!

Next week will be better. You are doing the right things.. it WILL pay off :)

Emily Gray Clawson said...

This is why I don't weigh in every day. Your weight naturally goes up and down a bit all the time. If I weigh all the time then I start riding a roller coaster of emotions - elation over a little loss, desperation over a little gain. I only weigh myself once a week (okay, I do cheat sometimes) and then I make my daughter hide my scale. LOL. My friend actually threw her scale away and now just weighs herself once a month or so by taking a scale off the shelf at Walmart, weighing herself and then sticking it back on the shelf! I'm not that strong yet.

Don't let it get you down. This is a long journey and 1.5 lbs up or down today doesn't make a long term difference. The choices you make INSPITE of the scale are what make the long term difference.

Hang in there!

Brightcetera said...

When we first start working out our muscles hang on to the water that they need in order to help with the healing process. No sh*t, I read it in Bob Greene's book! It's perfectly normal...doesn't make us happy to see the #'s go up but it's just our bodies doing what they need to do. Hang in there!

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